I’m especially jealous of the friendship between the guy friend of mine I kinda ‘like’ and this other girl who is really intelligent and older than us (he likes older girls, apparently). I want to be satisfied that I’m his friend and not long to be something more.
It can be really hard to quell a crush on a guy you really like, especially if you are around him alot. I dont think you should count yourself out yet, but if you feel like you’ll never get with him, you should find a new muse 
